Malam Anugerah Sanggar Sanjung

25 Mac ni kira tarikh penting gak la bagi kami2 yang memang aktif dengan dewan budaya. Pada tarikh ni la kami kena buat show depan canselor USM. Akhirnya penat lelah latihan utk medley berakhir pada hari ni.

'baru sampai kat EQ hotel'

Kalau tak silap ada la kami buat latihan selama 3 mgu...dari bukan pelakon...terus belajar jadi pelakon pula...walau apapun, kalau dah namanya bukan jiwa pelakon...memang diakui sangat susah nak terima watak yang btl2 strong...nak nangis pun ada gak buat watak yang gila2...coz memang payah nak buat...semua tak menjadi...tapi at last persembahan ok gak...

'ngan dila - ready utk dondang sayang, jadi nyonya pula...hehehe'

Cuma bila dah betul2 majlis...memang bikin semua hilang mood la...punya lama nak tunggu dari 1 persembahan ke persembahan seterusnya...mula2 kami buat tarian "dondang Sayang". Kiranya mengimbau sejarah baba dan nyonya la...pakaian pun macam apa tah...rambut disanggul punya la tinggi...dulu time kecik2 suka tengok cerita baba nyonya...tak terfikir pula la kena ambik watak mereka pula bila dah capai umur camni...macam2...memang tak dijangka. Korang tengok la gambar kat bawah ni...agaknya ni la kot kostum yang paling simple dan nampak sangat tak menarik sepanjang terlibat dalam kumpulan kebudayaan universiti ni.

'barisan pelakon handalan untuk Medley - sara, me, aina, dila n k.zah'

"dalam kehidupan ini, yang terindah...

melalui usia remaja...

gurau senda suka duka,

sering berganti...meninggalkan kesan abadi..

oo..berdebar2 hatinya, kali pertama bertentang mata...

inikah pengalaman...harus ditempuhi tiap insan..." -lagu utk lakonan.

ada lagi lagu lain...step tarian memang best giler...sharp kata Dr. Hadi

" punch card...oo cepat..." hahah

Apa2pun yang penting bila dah habis performance, semua berpuas hati walaupun ada yang 'gelong' time "dondang sayang". Kalau abang Zul nampak...mau bising orang tua tu...hehehe...

ringan sikit kepala...

fuhhh...lega sikit dah sekarang, tugasan semua dah hantar...last project baru je hantar petang tadi. Jenuh gak mata bersengkang sampai pagi, dah la kena bangun awal lagi...ingatkan ada lagi kelas minggu ni tapi rupa2nya kelas habis minggu lepas...hahaha...tapi xpe la juga, awal gi school boleh la sambung editing kat computer lab...

Sampai pukul 2 lebih menghadap komputer je...penat gak la. Dah la tak lunch lagi. Parah betul...nah sekarang padan muka, selera makan dah merajuk...tadi lepas hantar kat ofis terus nak gi makan la kononnya...tapi dah tak lalu nak makan. Biar je la...malam ni baru makan.

Sempat lagi menjenguk gi bilik tv tadi...tapi tak syok la coz tak tahu hujung pangkal cerita...ni la ni kes selalu tak tengok tv...hahaha...macam la perlu sangat nak tengok tv pula.

kalau rajin nanti malam sambung lagi cerita ni...ok :)

Pening2

huhuhu...malam ni alamatnya malam ni kena la berjaga lagi...nak siapkan report utk globalization paper. Padan la muka...siapa la suruh busy sangat the whole week...hehee

Tapi busy2 pun sempat gak jenguk blog ni...saje je...rehatkan mata dan otak kejap...

ok la...nak sambung buat report balik...

Hari Sabtu yang sibuk...

Pagi tadi bangun awal coz hari ni ikut ambil MTeST utk KPLI...kat SMK Raja Tun Uda, Penang. Sebenarnye dekat gak la sekolah tu dari USM, kalu nak guna bas pun bole tapi memandangkan kami tak tau lokasi sekolah tu, makanya terpaksala guna teksi dan bayar RM15...huhuhu..mahal wo...hanya utk perjalanan tidak sampai 15 minit. What to do :(

Memang bengong giler buat ujian tadi...ada yang x sempat nak habis...apa2 pun, dah cuba buat yang tbaik gak...majoriti yang gi MTeST kat pusat ujian tu tadi ialah pelajar USM yg final year...wow...ramai gak yang minat nak jadi cikgu ni ye...agaknye la...

Test habis dalam kul 12 lebih...terus je gi seberang jalan...bukannye nak terus gi balik USM tapi menyempatkan diri, singgah gi pasaraya Giant dulu...Sunshine pun dekat gak...sebenarnye niat nak cari tempat makan je kat Giant tu tapi mata ni pantang nampak kedai pakaian...terus je redah...last2 terbeli baju ke, seluar ke...memang satu amalan dan tabiat yang buruk. Tapi itulah hakikatnya...lagi2 kalau dah memang dengan yang kaki shopping...macam aku ke...agaknye la kot...? hehehe

Berkira2 nak balik USM dlm kul 2 petang tapi tgu bas T308 kat depan hospital Pulau Mutiara tu memang bikin panas...lama nak kena tgu baru ada bas...tapi tu pun tak direct gi USM...nak tak nak...terpaksa naik gak...sampai BJ pas tu sambung bas dari BJ ke USM...Nasib gak la turun je dari bas...ada rapid yang lalu USM, terus naik...tergesa2 ni coz malam ada dinner...mask tak buat lagi...dah la nak kena makeup lagi...uhuhuhu...

sampai bilik je tengok my rumate tak siap gi padahal jam dah nak dekat kul 4...ingatkan dia jadi guna makeup artis import...rupa2nya keje dia tak siap lagi so terpaksa la buat keja dalam keadaan yg sgt kelam kabut...sebenarnya tadi memang dh budget nak makeup around 4 something supaya boleh la nak bagi makeup nampak lawa sikit...kononnya la tapi kena buat dua mask...then makeup rumate lagi...so i only have about 10 minutes to prepare for the dinner...sedihnya...sangat kelam kabut...dengan rambut yang tak menjadi...makeup pun entah serabut kot...biasala klu dh last minute and tgesa2...dengan dress yg x sempat nak iron lagi...huhuhu...memang dasyat. Alamatnya saya tlambat sampai kat tempat tgu bas utk ke hotel...

apapun, dinner CUS (Catholic Undergraduate Society)memang best...part best, of course la makan...yang lain macam biasa je la...sampai macam dah malas nak makan lagi walaupun makanan sedap2...cuba tak puas hati sikit coz my bubur sagu kena ambil awal walaupun saya tak habis makan lagi...saya sempat jamah sikit je...coz kena ambik gambar and jaga music...tu la gara2 sllu bangun dari tempat duduk...agaknya staf tu ingat saya dah selesai makan kot...huhuhu...sedih la...dah la bubur sagu dia sedap...sllu makan kat hotel lain tapi rsanye tu yang sedap...

Walaupun hari ni penat sikit tapi saya rasa enjoy...hheeheh

Citrawarna USM 2009

Setiap tahun USM akan mengadakan pertandingan citrawarna antara desasiswa...ala2 citrawarna Malaysia la juga tapi yang membezakannya, citrawarna Malaysia tu matlamat utamanya ialah untuk menunjukkan semua budaya dan golongan etnik yang ada di Malaysia: hanya persembahan biasa samada perarakan sambil menari atau pun sebagainya...berbeza dengan citrawarna USM...ianya diadakan sebagai suatu pertandingan tapi masih mengekalkan matlamat asal iaitu menggambarkan masyarakat pelbagai kaum. Setiap tahun konsep persembahan adalah berbeza. Dan pada tahun ni tema untuk citrawarna USM ialah "Membudayakan Masyarakat Berbilang Kaum". Tuan rumah bagi citrawarna tahun ni ...desasiswa Cahaya Gemilang...desa saya ni...sepanjang 3 tahun pengajian...tak pindah gi mana2 desa...selamat...senang sikit nak gi kelas...dekat sangat dengan pusat pengajian.

gambar penari2 CG dalam khemah...

wajah2 penari CG

Dan gara2 tema tu juga la saya terseret sekali dalam citrawarna tahun ni walaupun pada asalnya tidak terlibat langsung. Konon2nya jadi puteri santubong la ...melambangkan masyarakat Sarawak...mula2nya memang cadang nak guna baju bidayuh coz tu memang etnik saya pun...tapi lepas rehersal fikir balik gak kesesuaian warna kostum dengan keadaan padang...coz pada malam rehersal tu mereka tak pasang spot light...so padang nampak macam gelap cikit...then tukar la plan guna kostum iban pula...

kat lokasi citrawarna

Terpaksa la ambik kostum dengan kawan...nasib la hari sabtu tu ada bas...kalau tak memang nangis la nak bawa kostum yang berat tu balik CG. Satu lagi masalahnya, takde budak CG pun yang boleh tolong pasangkan "sugu". Masalah betul...suruh kido pun dia buat macam tak stabil gak...tanya kat budak2 sarawak lain pun mereka tak boleh nak buat...apa ni...memalukan betul la tak reti nak tolong pasangkan...cuba belajar cikit ....hehehe...saja nak marah orang kan...

Dah la makeup pun sendiri...dalam keadaan kelam kabut lagi tu...apa ni...nama puteri santubong tapi takde makeup artis...pasang sugu pun sendiri...ewah2...pandai pula...nasib la menjadi...nato tolong kemaskan baju & tolong pasangkan tali pinggang yang berat sangat tu je...nasib la kami sama2 join DB at least tau nak tolong siapkan kostum kawan.

Sebenarnya peranan saya kat citrawarna tu baca sajak je walaupun sebenarnya tak reti sangat pun baca sajak. Main bantai je la kalau dah orang suruh...

taking pic with Jamuna & Nato

Part paling best ni...kena angkat..wah...macam ratu la pula...hehehe...tapi budak2 tu buat part puteri keluar dari bawah buluh memang menjadi...mula2 takut gak la klu ada buluh yang tkena sugu kat kepala...tak pasal2 jatuh pula...kan ke malu...

part paling tak bestnye pula...sangat susah nak duduk...bukan susah mana pun sebenarnya tapi risau kalau2 kain makin jatuh...tu la bahananya siapkan pakaian dalam keadaan kelam kabut...kan sendiri juga yang terpaksa susah. Tapi nasib baik la urusetia tu betul2 mengurus...dapat la duduk kat kerusi...selamat sikit klu dibandingkn duduk atas trek larian.

nini and me :)

with yusrina...

tengok la lobi ni dah macam tongkang pecah jadinya

Memang penat la mlm citrawarna tu...balik desa dah tengah malam...alamatnya saya tido pukul 4 pagi...gara2 nak kena kemaskan barang dulu...nak buka semua kostum lagi...makeup lagi...hmmm...tapi balik bilik pun sempat lagi nak berposing ni...hahaha...

Pantang duduk depan kamera...nak je bergambar...ni sempat lagi berposing kat bilik. hehehe

What is love

Everybody seems to believe that love is a good thing. However, not all agree what is love. Is love that warm touchy-feely feeling a person has when he is with a familiar person? According to the Bible, love is caring in action. Love isn't what we feel, but what we do --Rich Deem



The true meaning of love, as defined in the Bible, has been corrupted in the common usage of our English language and society. Most often, love is confused with infatuation - that elated, "high" feeling we get when we "fall in love." This kind of "love" is something that lasts typically less than a year, and unless replaced by true love, results in broken relationships.

Satu kemestian..

hahaha...yang ni pla nak cerita ttg cgu August...lebih suka dgn gelaran austine...hahaha. Dia ni suka sangat tanya soalan cepumas...satu kemestian kot bagi dia ni. Soalan "How's Life" dia tu memang tersirat sangat2. Rupa2nya nak tanya status juga soalan dia ni...kali ni pula dia nak saya jadi adik ipar dia...pandai btl dia padankan org...uiii...ada ke patut...ni saja nak kes buli orang la nanti...mentang2 la dalam ramai2 kami yang rapat, saya yang paling kecik...huhuhu...nak kenakan org la tu...xpe2...

kesian si memel pula yang kena jadi mangsa dia kali ni...kenapa la memel juga yang jadi pilihan cgu august ni utk saya...xde calon lain ke...mentang2 memel dh keje...tapi bagus juga ye dia ni...dia cari calon utk sya yg dh kerja...hmmm..

ooo...agaknye sebab kami 2 je la kot yang blm kawin...so pandai2 la dia nk kenakan kami...pandai ye...mentang2 dia dh kawin...tu kes jeles la tu...jeles tgk org lain single...nak juga org bcouple. sapa suruh dia kawin dulu...tapi memang patut juga pun dia kena kawin dulu...hehehe...xde la org yang sllu complen & minta tlg cari calon bini utk dia...hahahaha...

Xpe la cgu...nanti kalu smpai turn kami saya jemput la semua...sabar je la ye...time tu jgn tak dtg pula...:)

imbau kenangan

Semalam saya jumpa dengan cikgu time sekolah menengah...dia datang ke penang hari isnin coz husband dia convo on 25 Mac. So, saya ambil kesempatan ni jumpa dengan dia...rindu gak dengan cikgu2 kat sekolah menengah especially yang rapat2...cam cikgu Connie, Cgu Augustine, Cgu Remy, ramai lagi la...mereka ni semua la yg bagi galakan and sokongan suruh saya sambung belajar dulu...especially cgu august...dia dah saya anggap macam abang sendiri...ye la kan...klu dah namanya anak sulung...mana ada kakak atau abang...lagipun cgu august ni dia suka bagi nasihat positif...dia memang baik la..

k, b'balik kepada cgu connie...dia dtg dgn anak sulung dia sekali...wah...comelnye umik...macam muka mak dia juga...nmpknya dah jadi mak org mun perangai dia mcm dulu lagi...suka sangat pgl orang "nenek". time sek men dulu dia ajar orang tarian...hah...sekarang anak dia pula suka menari...tergelak sakan la dengar cerita dia semalam...lucu betul...

Tak dapat nak sembang lama dgn dia semalam coz mereka balik petang semalam juga & saya pula ada kls kul 3...

Minggu yang sesak...

Minggu ni memang penat gila2...dari minggu lepas takde masa nak rehat. 21hb join citrawarna...buat latihan cuma 2 hari je dgn penari2 desa...tapi apa2 hal...setiap kali join citrawarna mesti jadi puteri...hehehe...ada bakat la ni nak jadi puteri...puteri mak ngan ayah la. hehee

Masa 1st year dulu jadi permaisuri "Sultan Johor"...tapi lucunya time tu permaisuri naik kuda kepang gak...tak logik sangat...dahla pakai kebaya lagi...mmg tak patut la kengkawan cadangkan idea gila tu...tapi apa2pun...semua enjoy time tu.

Time 2nd year pula tak join citrawarna coz busy ngan Dewan Budaya...jadi tolong urus kostum ngan makeup je la...

Tahun ni pula memang dah plan awal2 tak nak join citrawarna tapi last minute kena panggil gak...time rehearsal untuk "Sanggar Sanjung"...ada kawan minta tolong...kesian pula kalau tak tolong desa sendiri kan...nasib la latihan tak lama...

Petang sabtu punya la kelam kabut coz lambat siap...lagi 1 xde org yang pandai tolong pasangkan kostum yang saya pakai...hampeh btl la diorang ni...nasib la menjadi gak bila buat sendiri...

Hari selasa(24hb) pula ada Augerah Sanggar Sanjung kat EQ hotel...kami ulang alik ke EQ dari hari Isnin..Isnin petang buat dry run rehearsal...malam pula full rehearsal...balik bilik kejap je utk makan & mandi...habis rehersal dh lambat...

pagi selasa tu pas gi kls kul 9 terus je gi latihan kat DB...yang ni latihan untuk Malam Bintang pula...macam artis je penuh jadual tapi gaji tak jalan...hahaha. Petang tu lepas makeup kat studio terus gerak g EQ....majlis yang memenatkan...habis tgh malam...malam tu kami peform "Dondang Sayang" - jadi baba nyonya kejap...

Sekarang ni pula sibuk ngan Malam Bintang...perlu la mereka nak buat ala AF la konon...nak juga menari utk lagu tema...terpaksa tambah 1 lagi tugas dalam jadual harian...malam ni fulldress rehersal...penat btl la...xde masa nak rehat. Esok pula pertandingan nye...minta2 la malam esok dapat balik awal...pagi sabtu nak gi MTest lagi...tak habis belajar lagi ni...bercelaru kejap otak nak ingat formula MT...

Berdoa je la saya ni agar semuanya berjalan dengan lancar...Amen...

MAlam Bumi Kenyalang(Sarawak) at USM

Every year Perkumpulan Anak-Anak Sarawak (PERKASA) - USM will perform their culture to everyone here in USM especially for those who doesn't know much about Sarawak. And now it has become an annual activity.

here am i...smile...

"dayung Bidayuh"

hahaha...here am i...this picture actually edited picture...i guess coz it was taken by one of our advisor. It was taken by last year event...MBK 2008...and our make up artist are Mr. Araffie @ ara. And now he's working as a reporter at TV3. He must be enjoy with his work.

While the picture below was taken by this year (2009) on 7 February, MBK 2009. Our make up artist this year is Mr. Sunardi @ Ms Sue...

Wahaha...while me...i'm very "setia" with my own ethnic dance called "Bilangi". I've heard some say it was the easiest dance among other Sarawak ethnic dance...but for me, it not like what they say. Yes the movement is look very simple but nobody knows how to make it looks very nice while the dance performs on stage. It looks strange when you cannot move your foot correctly...maybe no body realized it but for me...it's very important if you want the dance look perfect. It's not only you move your hand and leg...but you must "hayati" the music. Some even can't heard the beat very well...and it makes the dance look "cacat".

this is the complete bidayuh Costume

here we start to "Bilangi"

most of the dancers cannot do this part very well...i called this steps as "shuffle"...hahaha

taking picture with Helen...she is our "Pengarah Projek MBK" for this year

with Iban dancers

with Serin...she's my coursemate...both of us taking Antrophology and Sosiology as our major course...i invited her to join MBK this year as a dancer and luckyly she agree. Here she's wearing Orang Ulu attire. She's actually an Iban lady (indu Pakan), from Sarikei Sarawak. Am i right rynnn...? hehehe



wahaha...here i'm with indu bajik...miss Dijah...she's also my course mate but she's taking social work...same as serin, she's iban but don't know how to "ngajat" so i gave them "datun Julut" dance which is perform by Orang Ulu ethnic. And here they are...wearing the complete attire of Orang Ulu. Very nice costume, isn't it? It was very colourful. I wish i could buy one for my own collection...hahaha


and this is Emma...Indu kapit + Bau...she's originally Iban and now she is wearing "ngepan" iban...iban costume

this is Plonia...also bidayuh lady...both of us are from Serian, Sarawak. She's also first time join MBK as a dancer...hahaha, kesian Plo...but she enjoy the night.

2 ladies with me here is Anna (left) and Debbie (right)...both of them are from Sabah. They are also my frenz...don't be surprise...Debbie is my roommate. hahaha...

and here is Flory...also Sabahan...she is my junior at Culture center (Dewan Budaya, USM)...we join the Kumpulan Kebudayaan Khas Universiti...enjoy to have them there.

Mitos Pemakanan sihat

Seperti yang anda sudah ketahui, kekurangan nutrien boleh menjejaskan kesihatan dan kecergasan badan. Walaupun amalan pemakanan sihat sangat penting, terdapat mitos yang boleh menjejaskan kesihatan anda jika anda mempercayainya.Berikut adalah mitos mengenai pemakanan sihat:

1. Bersenam dengan perut kosong.

Jika perut anda berkeroncong, ia cuba memberitahu anda sesuatu. Jika anda tidak menghiraukannya, anda memaksa badan anda bekerja tanpa bahan bakar. Sebelum bersenam atau melakukan apa-apa aktiviti fizikal, pastikan anda mengambil makanan ringan terlebih dahulu seperti sebiji epal.

2. Bergantung kepada biskut dan minuman tenaga.

Walaupun elok mengambilnya sekali sekala, ia tidak membekalkan antioksidan yang anda perlukan untuk menghalang penyakit. Lebih baik anda bergantung kepada buah-buahan dan sayur-sayuran memandangkan ia penuh dengan vitamin, mineral, cecair dan serat.

3. Tidak mengambil sarapan pagi.

Tidak mengambil sarapan bukan idea yang bagus memandangkan sarapanpagi memulakan hari anda. Badan anda memerlukan bahan bakar secepatmungkin, dan tanpanya, anda akan berlapar hingga ke tengahari.

4. Diet rendah karbohidrat.

Badan anda memerlukan karbohidrat untuk otot dan juga penyimpanan tenaga.

5. Makan apa saja yang anda mahu.

Pemakanan sihat dan bersenam tidak memberi anda lesen untuk memakanapa saja yang anda mahu. Kita semua memerlukan nutrien yang sama, sama ada kita bersenam atau tidak.

6. Kalori tidak mencukupi

Walaupun menurunkan berat badan melibatkan kalori, kehilangan secara mendadak adalah merbahaya. Apa yang perlu dilakukan adalah mensasarkan untuk menurunkan 1 – 2 paun seminggu. Pastikan anda mendapat kalori yang cukup untuk membolehkan badan anda berfungsi dengan sempurna.

7. Kurang minum.

Air, susu dan jus adalah minuman terbaik untuk mereka yang aktif. Anda perlu kerap minum dan tidak menunggu dahaga. Apabila anda merasa dahaga, badan anda sudah merasa kesan kekurangan air.

Menukar cara anda makan adalah langkah penting ke arah pemakanan sihat dan ia akan memberi kesan ke atas kesihatan anda. Semakin sihat pemakanan anda, semakin sihat badan anda. Tidak kira berapa umur anda, pemakanan sihat merupakan sesuatu yang perlu anda utamakan. Jika anda memberi peluang kepada pemakanan sihat, anda segera akan melihat bagaimana ia mengubah kehidupan anda – kepada yang lebih baik.

Berapa banyak air yang perlu diminum?

Ada orang kata jangan minum air banyak-banyak. Minum seteguk dua saja, ini petua untuk awet muda. Ada pendapat yang mengatakan kita perlu meminum 8 gelas sehari. Yang mana betul?

Pendapat yang pertama, memang tidak betul. Yang kedua? Tidak berapa betul! "8 gelas sehari" lebih merupakan sebagai lagenda yang telah diterima sebagai fakta.

Baru-baru ini, Jurnal Psikologi Amerika mendedahkan bahawa tidak terdapat bukti saintifik yang dapat menyokong teori "8 gelas sehari". Jangan salah faham pula. Saintis tersebut bukan mengatakan kita tidak memerlukan air. Tetapi nasihat agar kita mengambil 8 gelas air sehari bukanlah satu nasihat yang baik.

Pertama, kita perlu meminum air berulangkali di sepanjang hari. Meminum 8 gelas di waktu pagi dan mempercayai bahawa anda sudah meminum air yang cukup untuk hari tersebut adalah berbahaya.Mereka yang meminum air, walau setengah gelas, pada setiap jam akan mendapati diri mereka begitu bertenaga.

Berapa banyak yang perlu diminum? Ianya bergantung kepada cuaca dan aktiviti yang anda jalankan. Lebih banyak anda kehilangan air, lebih banyak yang perlu diminum, lebih banyak dari 8 gelas.

Tetapi jangan pula meminum terlalu banyak. Kenapa pula? Meminum terlalu banyak air boleh menyebabkan keracunan air (sekiranya menahan membuang air kecil) ataupun situasi elektrolit tak seimbang.

Peringatan: Lebih banyak anda meminum air, lebih banyak anda perlu menggantikan elektrolit anda. Di mana anda boleh memperolehi bekalanelektrolit? Dari air minuman sukan seperti 100 Plus, Excel dll.

Nanti dulu, sebelum anda ke pasaraya untuk membeli minuman tersebut, saya ada satu petua untuk anda. Masukkan secubit garam ke dalam setiap gelen air minuman anda. Nah! Anda sudah mendapat bekalan elektrolit yang cukup. Sudah tentu pengeluar air minuman sukan tidak akan memberitahu kita mengenainya.

SAma-samalah kita menjaga kesihatan diri.

Unbreak My Heart -- Tony Broxton

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Come back and bring back my smile

Come and take these tears away

I need your arms to hold me now

The nights are so unkind

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life

Un-cry these tears I cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

Take back that sad word good-bye

Bring back the joy to my life

Don't leave me here with these tears

Come and kiss this pain away

I can't forget the day you left

Time is so unkind

And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life

Un-cry these tears

I cried so many nights

Un-break my heart

My heart

Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Un-break my heart

Say you'll love me again

Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life

Un-cry these tears

I cried so many, many nights

Un-break my

Un-break my heart oh baby

Come back and say you love me

Un-break my heart

Sweet darlin'

Without you I just can't go on

Can't go on....

Satu cerita di Unit KAunseling

Hahahaa...ketawa dan terus ketawa.

Pagi tadi saya gi unit kaunseling (dalam pukul 11.30am) ...nak sahkan sijil untuk dihantar ke UPSI. Di sini la bermulanya segala cerita...masuk je unit kaunseling (kawan saya kata "UK"...ingatkan United Kingdom ke ape...) dengan harapan Kak Fauziah, seorang Pegawai Kaunseling yang akan sahkan sijil saya tu...dengan selamba je la tanya terus kat Kak Ogy tanpa kisah sangat pun kat lelaki yang duduk kat depan dia.

hehehe...lelaki tu tanya camni..." Ye, nak ape?"... lembutnye suara abang ni...hahaha.

Masih lagi tak peduli kat dia, saya terus je cakap dengan kak Ogy nak sahkan sijil. Tapi yang tak puas hatinye...dia suruh pula lelaki yang tegur tadi tolong sahkan untuk saya coz dia busy la konon sedangkan lelaki tu tak buat ape2 pun. Suka la dia nia...gelakkan orang la tu. Agaknye dalam hati dia kata "padan muka kau...sombong sangat dengan aku...tengok last2 aku juga yang sahkan sijil kau ni"...hahaha. Mana la tau kan dia kata camtu.

lelaki ni pula boleh tanya saya sejuk ke tak...dalam kepala memang tak dapat nak fikir apa la...ingat takut pejabat pos tutup je. Lepas tu bila otak ni dah stabil sikit, baru terfikir.."dia ni tanya pasal bilik dia sejuk ke apa?" Memang betul la tak faham apa yang dia ni tanya sebenarnya. Ye la bilik dia pasang air cond mana tak sejuk. Saya pula main jawab la..."tak sejuk pun. Kan panas kat luar tu"...hahaha...padan muka dia. Tak tengok ke orang tengah tutup payung tadi masa nak masuk pejabat. loyar buruk betul la mamat ni.

hehehe...rupa2nye..dia nak tau la kot kenapa dia rasa sejuk...orang lain tak rasa pula. Dia kata agaknye nak demam kot...saya mengiyakan je la...tak tau pun dia nak demam ke apa kan...bukannye saya doktor.

Yang rasa lucunya tu, dah cakap dah saya ni final year...balik2 dia tanya lagi "dulu study USM ke". Saya pula banyak kali la kena ulang kat dia saya final sem dah. Lagi satu...sedangkan dia tengah sahkan sijil dan kad penganalan saya...masih lagi tanya kalau kena hantar kat Sabah dan Sarawak camne...tak risau ke...? Hello...saya orang Sarawak, jadi tak kisah la nak hantar gi Sarawak kan...bukannyer macam orang Semenanjung yang takut sangat nak gi Sarawak.

Hahaha...tak kena lagi soalan dia. Bab yang paling sentap...siap dia tanya lagi..."suami tak marah ke kalau kena hantar kat Semenanjung"..."Suami tak marah ke duduk jauh2 ni"...hahaha...agak2 la kalau nak tanya soalan cam tu kan. Saya belum kahwin lagi dah kena cop status "married" oleh mamat sorang ni. Lepas bagi soalan sentap tu baru la dia tanya soalan cepumas pula..." Awak dah kahwin ke...?" Agak2 apa saya kena jawab dengan dia ni. Dah orang kata belum kahwin lagi...dia boleh lagi tanya soalan macam ni. Menangis...menangis.

Agaknye lepas tu dia nak cover malu kot coz selalu je tersalah tanya...lepas tu kenakan dia balik...saya tanya la kat dia..."Muka saya ni macam orang yang dah kahwin ke..?dia cakap la camni "Ye la, mana tau kan...baru lepas kahwin ke...muka berseri-seri je..." eeeiiii...ingat muka orang yang baru lepas kahwin je ke yang ada seri...hahaha...padan muka ta malu.

Lagi satu kan...agaknye macam mana la orang tengok muka saya ni...saya lahir kat Sarawak. Mak ngan ayah semua orang Sarawak...saya ni Pure Bidayuh Lady tapi orang selalu je ingat saya ni orang semenanjung. Kalau terkeluar longhat utara...orang selalu kata saya orang Kedah atau Penang...tapi kalau betul2 cakap malaya...orang ingat otang KL atau Johor la pula.

Tadi pun rasanya mamat ni tersalah tafsir kot bila dia tanya tak kisah ke kalau kena hantar gi Sabah Sarawak. Hahaha...lupa pula nak bagitau nama mamat ni...nama dia "*****Anwar****" hehehe...tak boleh bagitau habis...kang dia malu pula.

Tapi kalau kes ni kira boleh tahan lagi. Kalau sampai bab2 puasa tu yang tak suka tu. Susah sangat nak makan...macam pesalah penjara jer...selalu je diperhatikan. .padahal saya bukannye puasa pun. I'm a catholic. Tapi setiap kali puasa, keadaannye tetap je sama walaupun orang tu dah biasa tengok saya makan. Hhhmmmm....susah.

Kalau makan kat kedai cina pula...ada yang tanya boleh campur b*** ke tak. Yang tu senang cerita la cikit. Yang parah nye kalau mereka cakap cina...tak tahan...muka saya rasanye langsung takde muka cina. Apalah nasib...Beginilah kisah seorang anak perantau...huahuaua

Shopping...huahuahua :(

Yesterday(8 March 09) i'm wasting my money again. I do not have any plan to go shopping. We just went out to church for BM mass at 11.15am. After mass, as usual we go to find something to eat. One of my friend didn't join us coz she's in hurry. After buy Tambun's biscuit...she directly going back to her house. I guess...hehehe. While we go to "Sin Nam Hong"...our favourite place to eat. Hahahaha...actually i like to eat "Yong Tau Fu" there. Every week i must grab that food. Haahahaha. My friend always said i'm "Hantu Yong Tau Fu". Whatever...

After we isi perut...then actually we want to going back already la...but then we go to Camelion...hahaha...buying some accesories here..my friends buy some makeup kit. Hihihi...

What i want to say here is i buy something that actually i don't need to buy. I've lost my mind coz i already buy a new dress. What's wrong with me. I cannot keep my own promise that i wont buy things not really needed. But now i do it again. God please forgive me...

Even until now, i'm still thinking why must i bought it...i can still my other dress. Dah la maybe i can only use it here for that dinner. I don't think i want to used it on Gawai. Huh...meluat orang nangga ku kelak...ada ku jadi buah mulut orang tua kat kampung aku ya. Sapa suruh...padan dengan muka aku. Kenapalah mudah sangat kalah dengan kehendak yang tidak berpatutan juga. Hmmm...what to do. dah beli pun...nanti kalau i keep saying benda ni kan ada pula yang menyampah dengar...

Biar lepas je la...huhuhu...dah la lepas ni kena fikir nak cari heel yang sesuai dengan dress yang baru beli tu. Tu la..gatal sangat nak beli dress baru...tau2 pula dah tak padan dengan heel yang sedia ada. Padan muka aku...lepas ni buat lagi...memang la tak pernah sedar diri betul.

The Greatest Love of All

The Greatest Love

In her 1985 song, "Greatest Love Of All," Whitney Houston claimed that the greatest love of all was to love yourself: "Learning to love yourself. It is the greatest love of all."

However, the Bible has a different idea about what is the greatest love -- Rich Deem

Greatest Love of All by Whitney Houston

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside.

Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be.

Everybody's searching for a hero
people need someone to look up to
I never found anyone who fulfilled my needs.

A lonely place to be
and so I leamed to depend on me.

I decided long ago never to walk in anyone's shadow
If I fell
if I succeed
at least I lived as I believe.

No matter what they take from me
they can't take away my dignity.

Because the greatest love of all is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all inside of me.

The greatest love of all is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
it is the greatest love of all.

I believe the children are our future
. . .
I decided long ago never to walk in anyone's shadow
. . .
And if by chance that special place that you've be dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
find your strenght in love.

Jesus defined the greatest love from a human perspective, as recorded in the gospel of John:

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends. (John 15:13)

Jesus Himself fulfilled this greatest love by dying for us so that we could be forgiven of all our sins and have fellowship with God:

But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. (Romans 5:8)

This example of the extreme love of God is to apply to those who follow Jesus Christ.

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down His life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. (1 John 3:16)

Laying down one's own life is not the message of the world, and would be considered from an evolutionary paradigm to be stupid. Even in other religions, the giving of one's life is not encouraged. As an employee of a Jewish hospital (Cedars-Sinai Medical Center), I have had many opportunities to go to seminars about medical ethics and Judaism. For example, here is an example from Orthodox Judaism:

Two men are stranded in the desert. One man has water, while the other has none. There is enough water for one man to make it to safety. However, if they share the water, they will both die before they could get to safety. What does the man with the water do?

The rabbinical answer is that the man with the water should take the water to save his own life. Of course, the Christian answer is that the man with the water should give it to the other man and give up his own life. I discussed this specific example with my Jewish supervisor, who is married to a rabbinical scholar. Apparently, it made quite an impression, since the topic was discussed by the husband and wife, who reported their conversation back to me. When confronted with the differences between Judaism and Christianity, both thought that Christianity took the higher moral ground.

It is the love of God in Christ that allows His disciples to voluntarily give up their own lives for others. You, too, can experience this love and pass it on to others.

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39)

Meaning of your sign

The meaning of sign LEO

Fifth sign of the zodiacYour element: Fire
Your ruling planet: The Sun
Tarot card corresponding to your sign : La Force
Your lucky color: Yellow
Your stone: Gold

Your fire is the fire of high summer. It is incandescent, burning, and absolute. You do not accept, except with great pain, emotional mediocrity, half-measures, or half-hearted relationships. Passion must burn within you for you to find complete fulfillment. You have a great need to be loved, appreciated, and popular. Without this, you feel yourself entirely lost, abandoned, and very alone.

You are very flirtatious and you love jewelry. You have a great need to be popular and admired. Often your personal magnetism and your charm help you in this, but when this is no longer the case you suffer deeply. You always set your standards high. Some of your personal qualities favor success but when you encounter difficult obstacles you still have not learned how to surmount them.

To feel truly happy, you would need to succeed all the time. You have the capacity to do this, but your flaws occasionally hinder you at the first sign of trouble. Therefore, you hide yourself in silence and nothing you do can help.

Your temperament pushes you into situations where you have to "save face", which does you more harm than good. You don't manage to be perfectly lucid, or to look issues clearly as they are. You cut yourself off from others and since you hate solitude, you don't see the chances which life can offer you. In these situations your ascendant plays an important role. It helps you to extricate yourself. The Lion which you are can easily manage to straighten its mane.

Your relations to the other signs:

With other Leos sparks may fly. One of the two must make some concessions to the other, and this will not always be easy. Your relations may consist of spectacular confrontations, or of obstinate unwillingness to listen.

On the other hand you may surround yourself with signs such as Cancer and Aries who will often be ready to understand or admire you. In your private life a Sagittarius may be a very useful contact. Beware, however, of the signs of Air, particularly Geminis: all may go well with them for a time, but a fire can break out extremely quickly and ruin everything.

This short, unassuming analysis can help you to better conduct your existence. To learn to know yourself better allows you to maximize your strengths and minimize your weaknesses.

The people who succeed in life are often those who know consciously or unconsciously how to make the most of their talents, their advantages, and their strengths, while understanding how to maintain control over their weaknesses.

Always make a mistake on stage...hahaha

seperti selalu bila hujung minggu tiba, mesti jadi malas. Actually, i wake up early today coz i need to prepare for our show today...well, it just at Dewan Tuanku Syed Putra (DTSP). We are invited to do a cultural performance by Mass Communication Students because for their "ADWAVE" and today is the launching day.

Well, nothing is interesting. It just a simple show than before coz we actually used that dance for a several time. Hehehe...we don't have much time to do a practice and get new step. So we just used what we already have. Just make it easy. And today our makeup artist is Abg Reeza...wahaha...it has been long a time he didn't do his job (i mean do our makeup). And only today we meet again since last year (last semester...hehehe).

I reach at culture centre (Dewan Budaya) around 8am. I thought i was late, luckyly i'm the third person reach there. (Takde la kena sembur dgn Abg Zul kan...hehehe).

After makeup we directly went to DTSP and do a spacing,hahaha...funny la i think coz later once we already at stage while the performance start...confirm we did not follow the spacing we just done.

I'm not sure either audience realise that we do some mistake or not coz actually it's really like "berterabur"...hahaha. Some in a wrong position and make others confius. hahha...like dila. Hihihi...

We finish our performance around 11am even though they said our performance is actually at 10am. Well...macam tak biasa pula kan...?

Love Quiz results

Dear lydia

,You are a person who needs a partner who is responsible financially with an education, who will share responsibilities with you, support you emotionally and keep up with the heat and romance. Effort is a big thing for you and you need to see efforts being made by your partner often. Lack of efforts makes you feel like you may not be worth it in your partner's eyes and can cause problems in your relationship. Just remember that your partner can only do what he/she knows and cannot read your mind. If your partner is investing effort, but not quire as much as you would like, or not in a way that makes you feel special, just talk to him/her. Let your partner know that you love him/her and appreciate that he/she does for you, but also need and desire more. Then tell him/her what those needs and desires are. Open and honest communication with your partner will help your relationship grow into a more close ae. Understanding and caring about each other needs is key to making a relationship work.

check yourself out at love

http://www.love-sessions.com/illusion_love_quiz.htm

What is true love and how you do you know when you have found it? - -ChristianAnswers.net

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. — I Corinthians 13:4-8a



This verse describes the characteristics of true love. These qualities can certainly be found in the person of Jesus Christ, and they can be found in all truly loving relationships. The problem with trying to “find” love in our dating lives, is that too often we don't look for these characteristics. Rather we look at physical appearance, popularity, or wealth. These are not the qualities that God looks at and neither should we.



But the LORD said to Samuel, “…The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.”—I Samuel 16:7



Love is best seen as devotion and action, not an emotion. Love is not exclusively based on how we feel. Certainly our emotions are involved, but they cannot be our only criteria for love. True devotion will always lead to action—true love.



Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with ACTIONS and in truth. I John 3:18

How to Forget About an Ex

Most people will at some point in their life have to deal with a breakup with a partner and the emotions that comes with it. Sometimes it takes a while to get back on your feet and other times you feel better after a shorter period of time. It all depends on what type of person you are and how serious the relationship was. Here are some advice on how to make this period as bearable as possible.

1 - Talk to your friends

2 - Get clear with your ex. If there are a lot of unresolved issues involving money, possessions,
etc., clear them up

3 - Distract yourself. Movies, sightseeing, outdoor activities, games and a good book are all
possibilities

4 - Take up a new hobby or enroll in some classes.

5 - Exercise - put your mind on something new, like training for a marathon, improving your
tennis game, or working on those abs.

6 - Work hard. Work can be a great distraction, especially if you feel like you're accomplishing
something

7 - Indulge yourself. Chocolates, massages, facials, shopping sprees - whatever helps make you
feel good about yourself

8 - Date other people.

Wahahaha...what is this?

Love at First Sight:

Is it Real? Should People Trust It?

by http://www.sedona.com/

“Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away.”

-- British novelist Louis de Bernières

Love at first sight. It’s the stuff of fairytales, of romantic movies and, of course, of a hefty sampling of romance novels. But does love at first sight really exist?

If you ask some scientists, the answer is most certainly yes. A study in the Journal of Social and Personal Relationships found that people decide what type of relationship they want, and just how much effort they’re going to devote to it, after just a few minutes of talking to someone.

In the study, college students had a conversation with someone that lasted between three and 10 minutes, then filled out a questionnaire to predict how they saw the future relationship developing. After nine weeks, those who rated the potential relationship positively had developed closer relationships.

Although the study looked at same-sex friendships, the researchers believe the findings could be extended to dating.

"It's almost a self-fulfilling prophecy,” said study co-author Artemio Ramirez of Ohio State University. “We make a prediction about what kind of relationship we could have with a person and that helps determine how much effort we are willing to put into developing a relationship.”

It turns out that people make fairly quick decisions about how much they like a person, then naturally put more dedication to expanding the relationships with those they felt an immediate connection to.

Is it Love or Lust?

Of course, those who have fallen hard in “love at first sight” may have later been let down when they realized it wasn’t really love that was fanning the fire, but lust.

“Love at first sight is often just lust at first site,” says Hale Dwoskin, CEO and director of training of Sedona Training Associates.

How can you tell if your newfound love is going to withstand the test of time (or, if you’ve already found your long-time love, what advice can you give to the youngsters in your life)? By letting go of it using the time-tested and scientifically proven Sedona Method.

“The way to check if it is lust or love is to let go of the feeling,” Dwoskin says. “If it is love the feeling will get stronger and more expanded yet quieter. If it is simply lust, when you let go you may start to actually feel the love.”
“Either way,” Dwoskin continues, “allow yourself to enjoy the ride and follow your heart.”

Dia Lagi...

Kenapa la tiap kali aku dalam kesusahan atau kesakitan, pasti dia akan datang dalam mimpi ini. Masalahnya sekarang bukan untuk tenangkan hati pun. Setiap kali "kau" datang, setiap kali itu juga la aku akan bersedih dan mengenang semua kenangan yang seharusnya sudah lama aku hapuskan daripada memori ku ini.

Kenapa seringkali aku cuba untuk melupakannya, semakin kerap "kau" datang menyapa. Sehinggakan seringkali bila terjaga dari tidur, aku akan tercari-cari di mana gerangannya orang yang sememangnya aku sentiasa rindui...pedih sungguh kenangan yang "kau" tinggalkan buatku.

Apakah yang seharusnya aku perlu lakukan...bantu la aku untuk melupakan dirimu jika benar sesungguhnya engkau tidak memerlukan aku lagi. Janganla "kau" sentiasa datanmg menyapa ku lagi kerana setiap kali itu juga hati ku akan berdenyut kesakitan. Perlahan2 luka yang kau tinggalkan berdarah kembali. Ya Tuhan...berilah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi dugaan ini.

Sungguh aku sangat mencintai "dia" walaupun kami telah tidak mempunyai apa2 hubungan lagi sekarang. Malang sungguh, kasih sayang kami tercurah pada orang yang salah. Tapi kenapa begitu lemah "kau" menghadapi cabaran ini. Jika dari dulu lagi aku tidak menyambut huluran tanganmu, bagiku itu adalah yang terbaik dari sekarang aku terpaksa menanggung sakitnya. Kenapa harus "kau" memberikan aku harapan sekiranya "kau" sendiri tidak mampu untuk mempertahankan cinta kita.

Memang benar kata orang "Cinta adalah pertaruhan". Ya...aku pertaruhkan hatiku sendiri apabila menerima cinta yang "kau" hulurkan padaku. Andaiku tahu berakhirnya begini cinta yang kita bina...lebih baik kita hanya sebagai kawan biasa untuk selamanya.

Maafkan aku...tidak terniat untuk membenci dirimu namun setiap kali terpandang wajahmu, hatiku bagai disayat sembilu...amat pedih luka ini. Tidak tahu kenapa walaupun telah lama berakhirnya hubungan kita namun sampai ke saat ini, aku masih tidak mempunyai kekuatan untuk bersua muka denganmu lagi.

Sungguh...tipu andainya aku kata tidak rindu padamu. Aku rindu untuk menatap wajahmu. Aku rindu pada gurau sendamu. Aku rindu dengan belai manjamu. Aku rindu pada kasih sayang yang kau berikan...aku rindu dengan perhatianmu...AKU RINDU DIRIMU...andai angin bisa khabarkan rindu ku padanya...

Maafkan aku kerana masih merindui dirimu...bukan aku tidak mencuba melupakan mu...banyak kali. Aku tidak tahu kenapa sampai sekarang masih lagi tidak berdaya. Malah telah banyak kali juga aku mencuba untuk menerima lelaki lain sebagai pengganti mu namun hati ini tidak terbuka untuk menerima cinta yang mereka hulurkan. Aku sengaja menimbulkan kemarahan mereka. Biarlah mereka beranggapan bahawa aku wanita yang tidak sesuai dengan mereka...

Maafkan aku semuanya. Aku belum bersedia untuk menerima cinta lain...tambahan lagi aku takut kisah lama akan berulang lagi...sehingga saat itu, aku tidak mampu memikirkan adakah aku akan kuat untuk menanggung kekecewaan untuk kali kedua.

Sakit nyer...:(

Petang tadi saya training Taek Won Do. MAcam biasa la training confirm penat. Tapi hari ni saya dapat kenangan paling pahit kot sepanjang training.

Kebetulan hari ni kami ada AGM so training lambat start. Lepas AGM tu kami mula la training tapi hari ni tak buat teruk sangat. Macam kejap je...sempat belajar 2 teknik sparring je hari ni. Tu pun masih tak clear lagi...teruk kena buat yang lain pula. Dah la 19 Mac ni ada physical practical test. Gawat la macam ni.

Pas tu ingatkan nak buat tae-geuk tapi Master kami suruh buat free sparring. Gerun gak dah la kena jadi 1st person yang memanaskan arena sparring. Mula2 buat tu memang tak la serius mana pun. Dok gelak je dgn kawan. Kesian pula nak serang dia...ye la kan, orang tak bersalah terpaksa kena kick pula. Thanks GOD time 1st round yang saya buat ni tak sakit mana pun walaupun jadi nangka yang jatuh dari pokok je gamaknya. Lantai agaknye takde la licin mana pun tapi tak tau kenapa pula saya boleh tergelincir dan terus terbaring kat atas lantai tu. Nasib la dapat tahan badan, klu tak confirm bergegar otak ni kepala terhantuk atas lantai... hehehe...buat gempak la juga kan...coach pun risau juga tapi syukur xde pa2.

Ingatkan bila Master tanya saja nak tau betul2 dah ok ke ape tapi rupa2nya dia suruh buat untuk 2nd round pula...

Part ni paling gerun...

Lawan saya tu macam la lemah je..tapi bila dia tendang...alamak!!! sakit bangat...tapi salahnye dia kick below belt...mana tak lumpuh kejap kaki saya dibuatnyer...semua kaki yang dia serang. Ingatkan kesan nye xde la sakit sangat tapi bila dah sampai hostel baru rasa...nak nangis juga tahan kaki ni...dua2 dah membengkak...dah la semua bahagian yang bertulang semua ni yang jadi mangsa...

Teruk2...nak buat macam mana...sakit macam mana pun puas hati juga la bila master kata tadi saya dapat A untuk sparring. hehehe...